Reflections on Past Chaos and Growth

Reflecting on past times, I experience a mixture of regret and growth. Back in June 2019, in Nizhny Novgorod, a complex story unfolded involving personal struggles, risky lifestyles, and tumultuous relationships. Despite the chaotic backdrop, I was trying to find stability, switching from journalism to a startup, engaging in marketing, and navigating a romantic relationship with my boss, which was intense and clandestine. That relationship ultimately ended painfully, teaching me valuable lessons about boundaries, respect, and the importance of emotional health. I consciously chose to leave it all behind, recognizing that staying would only deepen my suffering, despite the allure of financial comfort and social status. Although I faced financial hardship and inner turmoil afterward, I eventually grew stronger, earned more, and learned not to ignore my well-being. Interestingly, she once warned me that the crypto market would crash, which spurred me to buy Bitcoin—a move that initially failed but later reinforced the lesson of knowing when to walk away. Overall, the experience underscored the importance of listening to one's instincts and the hazards of addiction, lessons I carry forward today.